She just did not comprehend any of it.
Nothing makes sense nor did she want to make sense of anything. Whenever she did try to make sense, absolutely no sense, none at all.
Was there ever any sense? Is there ever any sense?
Life is all about a game of emotions. The one who hath control of it, be the one who triumphs. It is a vicious cycle, and in her life it has a chronic pattern. The effort to deny it be meaningless. She has resigned out of shear fatigue, frustration.
Attachments without logic bring pain, so do those without clarity.
And this be both.
She knows it. She senses it.
A few seconds more.
She awaits the verdict!